exam results!

5/7 til the trigger is pulled.
whether i survive the blow,
or drop and bleed til i become like a prune,
its all in the hands of The Most Gracious.

simple things.

my heart still works.
one reminder is all it takes.
Usher and Alicia Keys were right.
Sheryl Crow too.

3 weeks + a few days of mischief

So close(1), yet so far(2).

(1) till exam day.
(2) topics to cover.

show and tell.

myself and my aims,
suffice for me alone it is known.
Must I go about aloud and proclaim,
what i myself have already shown?

:D

This is the best time to go back to the warmth of HOME!
:D

Act accordingly!

Countless lessons,
but never have i seem to take heed.
recall that i told myself,

"...what have we learned today? prepare earlier~!" 23/3/08

and yesterday, a lecturer said,

"If you have not started studying now, something is wrong with you!" 16/9/09

Indeed, something is seriously wrong here.
I feel no pressure, and i don't know why.
If this persists, this worldly doom would fall upon me.

Its now or never.
All or none.
Gotta soar above the threshold.
Strenghten my 'foothold'.
May the stress begin.

In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

in the dark.

system shutdown.

five.

Quran[2:286]
God never burdens a soul beyond its means: to its credit is what it earns, and against it is what it commits. "Our Lord, do not condemn us if we forget or make mistakes. Our Lord, and protect us from blaspheming against You, like those before us have done. Our Lord, protect us from sinning until it becomes too late for us to repent. Pardon us and forgive us. You are our Lord and Master. Grant us victory over the disbelieving people."

Everyday's tasks and tests can get overwhelming. when it does, you simply burn out, immobilize and do nothing. but, i realized, once you settle down and organize your thoughts and priorities, you get a nice check list that you can easily follow. And, every tick you mark, the more at ease your troubled heart becomes.
I have seeped in and out of this state: constantly lighting up and burning out. Too quick. but, i trust in God. God never burdens a soul beyond its means. Perseverence shall prevail!

Peace!

Salam Ramadhan.

I invite my friends and family to read and understand the Quran. If you understand Arabic, good for you. If you don't, read any translation that is available.

Surah Al Qamar verse 17, 22, 32, 40.(The same words are repeated)
(54:17,22,32,40) We made the Quran easy to learn. Does any of you wish to learn?

God gave you a question. What is your answer?

An obstacle.

Tightening my shoelaces.
Pulling up my pants.
In a crouched position like a tiger ready to pounce.

This is the biggest obstacle I'll ever face, as of now.
Final semester of pre-clinical studies.
What's challenging is the load of work. Studying the current semester's topic plus all the other previous four semester. I know myself, and if I don't focus... :(.
All i need to do is read, understand and familiarize myself with EVERYTHING I have studied.

Dr Nilesh Kumar, my mentor, said it best,
"You're a senior now, act accordingly."

Salam.

:D

cuti checklist.
1. GP posting(checked)
-meet up with Dr Hajijah.
-be useful and learn.

2. Family and friends.(checked)

3. Parkour and trick! Kuching City!(checked)

4. Study.(at least i had the intention. haha)

Curiosity kills,
waiting to shoot,
giving me chills,
head right down to my foot.

I am trembling
with sights i've just seen,
pain and disgust, ah,
utterly obscene.

But this mouth chooses
what it wants to say,
so keep quiet i must,
awaiting that dreadful day.

eyes closed.

I close my eyes.
The music begins.
All i have been through,
gets recreated into a song.
I love everything about it.
The rhythm.
The lyrics.
My righteous deeds,
my sinful sins,
all intertwine to make the perfect tune.
Though im not proud of my wrongs,
i shouldnt be proud of my rights as well.
Regrets turn into lessons,
successes humbles,
and all this for 1 reason.

The Afternoon.

In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
[103:1] By the afternoon.
[103:2] The human being is utterly lost.
[103:3] Except those who believe and lead a righteous life, and exhort one another to uphold the truth, and exhort one another to be steadfast.

Ukur sendiri ya!

haha.

the end of my 10 day holiday.

all my clothes are packed.
books, cables, video camera too.
tinggal mok mandik and pegi potong rambut gik.

in these short ten days, i have received a few advice;
-Belaja rajin-rajin.
-Don't try to succeed, make sure you succeed.
-Concentrate ngan tok dulok, klak mikir hal ya*.

Only now i realise the value of these 'typical' advice.
My elders and some of my friends came to the same
conclusion after going through it themselves.

Ahead of me lies semester 4 & 5.
Gotta tighten up my shoelaces
and take a deep breath.
This is a race i must win.

*4/114

:)

i passed. Praise be to God, Lord of the universe.

tomorrow, the 20th of February.

MY
RESIT
RESULTS
ARE
COMING
OUT
SOON!
Passing would be nice.
Ace-ing would be better.
Hopefully a seat is waiting for me in the semester 4 lecture halls.
Ameen.

one week

an almost 2 months holiday was shrunk to 1 week.
so, i shall make the best of these 7 days.

they're pulling out another chair.

I am given another chair, for me to sit on. I broke 2 of its legs the last time, making me hit my head on the ground. I'll try this time.